So it has been quite awhile since I have actually posted on here and I am sorry for those who did read which was probably only my close friends.. Today I am going to give you my thoughts not on news or anything but on my life...

I have recently made a huge change in my life. I ended a four year relationship with the mother of two of my three children.. It was quite a tough decision at first but in the end I decided that we needed to make the change. I am extremely happy now with life although I am not working right now that is the only downfall besides not seeing my children everyday, but it was for the better in several ways..

I am now back with Jessica a girl I was with over 6 years ago and until last year did not know I had a kid with her. It was neither of our fault because we never thought of the kid to be mine after we had split up. She has brought joy back into my life and it is the most remarkable thing I have had to experiance, she is an awesome person... I have to think that years ago if I would have never let her walk out of the door then she would be my wife right now and not someone else's wife. When she gets a divorce I plan on one day making her my wife. I could not ask for anything more.

Sometimes I wonder if I regret that we split up and in the long run yes I do regret that we went our seperate ways 6 years ago, although I could not see my life without the two kids I have with another woman. Those boys are my life. I have been asked if I was going to put the kid I found out who was just mine first over my other two since I pretty much missed out on the first 5 years of his life. The answer is no, I am going to treat them all the same because I love all my children the same. I always will, I will always be there for them no matter what. In fact I would do anything for them at any point they asked me.. One of my kids asked me to quit smoking because it was making me sick, I am done smoking now son. For my children, I am done. I Love them so much smoking is the last thing on my mind and I am packing it away. Two days no ciggerette and I am not even sweating the situation.. My kids are more important than my nicotine addictions.

As soon as I get back on my feet and have a job and we have a vehicle I plan on going back to church... I would go right now but I do not have a way to get there right now:(...

Everyone thank you for your time... I know this really is not much of an update but something was better than nothing.